Our story is a beautiful, crazy, unique, one of a kind tale, and looking back on past 6+ years we have been together, I am not sure there would be a lot we would change. It is impossible to live the lives myself and Kevin have lead, and not believe in God and recognize his presence throughout. Part of the reason for this blog is so that our child can look back when he is older and can read what everything was like before, during and after his birth. And while we will get in to how we met and the years leading up to now, we are most anxious to begin with how we came to know we are pregnant!
So how does a woman go 25 weeks being pregnant, and NOT know? Well, that seems to be the $1,000,000 question.
It was Halloween Eve, and we were at our annual family pumpkin carving contest. I (Liza) had not been feeling very well and knew that something was wrong. I thought I had come down with a serious bladder infection, and the thought of that maybe I had an ovarian cyst burst (I have had a history of those in the past) had crossed my mind. I was telling my sisters that night about how I was feeling and my older sister, Miranda bluntly stated, "I don't know Liza, that is sort of how I felt when I was pregnant." Part of me thought there was no way, and I think the other part was just in denial. I had very irregular periods for about a year prior, was on and off birth control, and really felt that I had not been ovulating for quite some time. Although I was in a slight panic, I did not let it show, and Kevin and I decided to get a pregnancy test on the way home that night.
First thing I did when I got home was take the test. A few minutes later, it came back negative "-" I let Kevin know, and since we both felt like we were not ready for a child, we were relieved. Still, part of me still felt this may not be right, so I checked throughout the night until bedtime, and the test still showed up negative.
The next morning I got up early to go to work, and Kevin was up early getting ready for church. I am still not sure what exactly it was that lead my curiousity, but I just HAD to look at that pregnancy test that I had thrown away. I literally felt all the blood rush from my face as this test had turned from negative, to positive over night. I couldn't believe it. I called Kevin into the bathroom, showed him the test and I could tell by the tone of his voice that he was scared as he stated, "Liza, you're pregnant."
I took another test that morning and it came back positive right away. I called my mom in tears, as we both knew we were capable of raising this child, but scared as hell. So many thoughts and emotions were running through our minds, but speaking for myself, fear was the biggest. "I know nothing about kids.." "What are we going to do about money?" "How are we going to raise a child?" "What is going to happen with our jobs?" And knowing that Kevin and myself like to have a good time and were living what you could say, the college life style, our biggest concern, "is our baby healthy?"
It's amazing what peace God has brought to us over the past few weeks. Through prayer, thoughts, kind words and preparation, our initial thoughts of having a child have done a complete 180. I cannot wait to meet my boy, and Kevin is so excited!! We are both so thankful and blessed to have moved at the time we did and be so close to our families. They have been nothing short of amazing and supportive throughout it all, and we want to thank you! And while Kevin and I were planning on getting married next October (mostly so we could save up money), we have moved the date up to December 18, 2010. It is extremely important to us that we are a family when we bring our baby into the world.
While this is only just the beginning, we are buckled in and ready for this ride called life. It can only go up from here, and we cannot believed that God chose us to be parents!
Isaiah 41:10
10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
